Today the pain in my back has made me feel sorry for myself! I know you probably cannot imagine that woman like me is talking about that, (or whining about that!) but running errands today sitting in my car I’m in so much chronic pain and have been for so long I just needed to cry. I’m tired, and worn out, by the constant, physical pain.
Of course I try to be optimistic, and do all the things I’m told to do to help it heal. (I have herniation’s at L4, L5 and S1 if you were wondering)I have moments where I think it’s getting better and then I’d lapse right back into incredible pain. Everything is uncomfortable. Sitting is painful, lying down is uncomfortable, standing is uncomfortable, exercise? Well, I probably don’t need to go there.
My back pain is making me feel sorry for myself because I want my active, full life back. I want to work out with my husband, go for long walks…hell even clean my house without pain. I have been dealing with this heavy chronic pain for year and a half now.
Not that I will ever do it, but I said to my sister this past weekend that I finally understand why people take such serious pain medications. I just want the pain to go away! And nothing in terms of natural healing is working. Now, granted, I have been told that if I want to heal I need to lie down on the floor, not my bed, too soft, and STAY STILL as much as possible. And IF I get up, don’t bend forward.
Ok, have you ever brushed your teeth, or gone to the bathroom? Think about that request…don’t bend…
